Well... its been a while since I actually wrote/typed anything up in here. Big updates on my life I guess, but they dont really seem to be heading any certain direction. I finally have a job, yet im not going to school... its more of a set back really. Im not going to school because of a screw up with classes and such.

So im working at Ross in stock, which basically means nothing cause we do every job there because of us being under staff and low pay role ~_~; The job... I must say is hard, its nice that I get all the hours that a person would if they got full time but this isnt a job I wish to keep forever... and I dont see me working more then a year there in all honesty. It's literally killing me doing the job day in and day out. Maybe im just weak cause ive never had a job... or maybe im just pampered or something. But I honestly dont mind baby sitting (which takes alot out of you) I dont even mind cleaning... which is a dity job. But... this stock job is insane. I have cuts and bruises everywhere possible... I have swollen fingers.. and by the next day I can barely process apparel and other things well.. because I can barely move my hands around. I have an insomnia problem... ive had one for a bit during high school... but not this bad... and im slightly worried about it. Which by the next day im tired... and I work slow... and its hard convincing my body to keep moving knowing I have no clue when im getting off that day. Last but not least.. as of late I seemed to have strained or killed my back... its bad enough.. that im having breathing issues... which its slight.. but I suppose its a concern none the less. (I take things lightly... if you dont know me well)

So with all this put together... it makes me think "Wow... I should REALLY get school done with" .... but then looking at it more clearly and with other facts in mind... I have no where to go. Yeah lets say I get my degree... it will only lead me in a field of competition, which if im chosen.. then I have to work my tail off to prove myself. It would be like any other grunt job with the up side of good pay.


I dont know... my interests must be bland... but I just cant seem to find a job that I have a REAL interest in. And maybe... in all reasoning.. thats just how it is. No one likes their job, but if you think about that... its kind of sad.